Turn that volume up

 

Having a bad day?

 Well my advice to you my friend:  turn that music on.

Truly that is something that will calm you down almost instantly.

Make music be your escape.

 Get away, put your headphones in and listen to your favorite songs.

Music will put you in a place where you will be happy.

Music will allows you to connect and express feelings.

Music will touch you in your own way

Turn the volume up

Let yourself go

When it hits you, you will feel no pain. (Bob Marley)

It will change your thoughts, mood, and emotions.

Trust me it is the best way to get away from the world.

Life begins where fear ends

 

Courage.  Brrrr I fear that word. I fear I don’t have that.

I fear of many things:

Alright, alright ill share a little bit:

I am afraid to be alone… No not just alone in the room. Alone-as in no one in my life to care for me, no one to tell me that everything will be alright. In specific I’m afraid of losing my best friend. All my teachers tell me you lose most of your friends as soon as you get out of high school.

I just sit here and wonder to myself.

Will I lose you? Where will all our secrets go? Who will keep them for us my friend?

 

I fear of getting to close to people, because everyone who promised to stay…

Gone! Forever!

 

I fear of growing up, looking back at dusty pictures and wishing for those times to come back.

I feel selfish now, I have been wanting to move on with my life for so long…

But now I’m scared to be on my own.

Times flies. Times flies so fast.

I am afraid of failing. I have people telling me S*** about all these things I will do and how I will succeed.

UGH it bugs me, how do they know what will happen to me?

Especially if they don’t even know the true me right now.

Yes I am not me when I am at school.

I am scared to be me, the only place I can be me is home and with my best friend.

I fear of people talking behind my back, thinking no one can hear them.

But someone always hears, someone can always tell.

I just want to be happy, is it really that hard?

Of course not!

But I fear of not being able to find happiness when I grow up.

I am afraid of growing old alone.

I want him; I want to be waking up next to him, and his arms hugging tightly my waist.

I want to be able to tell him “I love you”.

And hear it back.

But what’s ironic is that, I am afraid of love.

I am afraid of being heart broken or breaking someone else’s heart.

I can truly keep going and going talking about my fears.

But there is no more time.

I wanted to tell you that I am afraid of you reading this…

But I found a little bit of courage deep inside me to post this.

Butterflies are flying inside me, but not those fuzzy ones

These make me shake…

And now I’m Breathless.

Uhhhhh

I let it go!

Arevoir!

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Memories

I used to worry about going out on windy days, why?

I believed that because I was so small the wind would just pick me up and carry me far away. I was afraid of heights and of tight spaces.

 My mind wondered a lot. I was creative; I could come up with something on the spot.

And now… Now I can’t even come up with a paper to write.

 I miss the old me, I grew up too quickly.

I used to stay late nights out and listen to the wind whispers and it would pick up this rhyme and sing peacefully.

I loved hearing bedtime stories.

I worried too much also, it wasn’t just all games and fun you know?

I wanted to be taller, everyone kept growing but me.

I tried to do worse in school because I did not want others making fun of me.

Only later in life I realized that being too smart isn’t a bad thing.

I feel like now everything is flipped upside down.

When I was a child I loved school, it was my favorite place to be.

I was angry at the summer, and I couldn’t wait any longer for school to start again.

And now I HATE SCHOOL.

As a kid I experienced happiness.

But now I’m at the point where I will be trained for the rest of my life to pursue happiness.

But the past is all memories.

Time to grow up, time to be me, time to discover.  

Bricks post. I'll pass...

At first it was perfect, how couldn’t you see that?

After that night I felt alone,

I wanted to be silent I wanted the world to keep it quiet.

You broke my heart, I was falling apart.

I felt like my bedroom was the only place I could be myself, I locked up myself from the world.

Nothing matters, no one matters anymore.

My feelings were strong.

I was angry more than anything.

I could never make it normal anymore; it could never be the same.

You asked for forgiveness endlessly.

Instead I forgot, I made myself believe it was just a dream.

I couldn’t live in darkness anymore.

Above me I could see the bright sky, it was warm and welcoming.

The ladder wasn’t enough for me to reach to the top.

It took me years before I could start building the stairway to reach high.

I was not afraid anymore, again I felt like I was finally myself.

Now I could forgive, could you believe that?

Yes, I even build a bridge between us.

I can be open now, thanks to you I am me.

I am strong now; you can’t break through me anymore. No one can…

I had time to build myself up, I am complete.

You cannot destroy me.

 

Reach high my friend.

 

Arevoir!

Beauty Sleep

 

Pictures are talking back and forth to each other,

  Whispering,

  They think I can’t hear them.

  I wonder if they have been doing this for a while?!

  This is the first time I heard them.

  Yes, that is how tired I am.

One sheep

Two sheep…

Three sheep…

  Nope, not working.

  At night, instead of sleeping, I think of all whys and hows…

  My brain is screaming at me

  It is making stay awake and remember every stupid decision I have made today.

  Now I actually realize how much I have grown up.

  Nap is no longer a punishment

  Sleep is a reward.

  Every morning I have a battle with myself

  Deciding whether to spend more time on my appearance

  Or sleeping for just ten more minutes.

  Sleep always wins, of course.

  Legend says that if you can’t fall asleep at night

  It is because you are awake in someone’s dream.

  Please people,

  STOP dreaming about me!

  That would be great!

  Just let me get my beauty sleep!

I beg you!

Stomach…meet butterflies

What is love?

Love is just a simple word until that special someone comes along and gives it meaning

That fire burning feeling when you fall in love

They say love can’t happen at first sight…

I refuse to listen to those ignorant words

I believe…believe in love at first sight

What is love you may ask?

Love is when you can stay up late night,

 And because of him you will not mind losing sleep.

Love is reaching for your dreams together.

Love is having those mysterious butterflies everyone talks about

I’ve heard this quote one time…

It said

“Love is finding someone perfect and fall in love

And then finding out their imperfections and love them even more.”

Isn’t that what each one of us wants?

When we fall in love all physical imperfections will disappear

They become unimportant.

It is so hard not to fall in love with someone when they see deep down into your soul

When they understand the darkest corners of your mind and they still don’t mind

They still love you, because love never fails.

I don’t want to pretend I know what love is for everyone

After all we are different…

All I know what love is to me

Love is love.

We love, we forgive, we trust, we forget

After all we are all just humans

Stuck on the idea that love…only love could heal our broken hearts.

I'd like my crayons back, please.

It took me my whole life to learn how to paint like a child.

– Pablo Picasso

 

 

Being a little kid is probably the greatest times of our lives, simple things mean the most of us.

The good old days when every day was an adventure:

Playing in the mud,

Attempting to make a tree house,

Making tents in your living room out of old blankets

Pretending you had an imaginary friend named Franco

Everything was an adventure.

My mind would wonder and I wished to change the world

Somehow it is unacceptable to think that way anymore

As a little child you could be anything you wanted if you wished hard enough

At least that’s what the school taught me

Every waking hour was the new beginning; sleep was not a necessity…

Spending every waking hour playing outside, rain, wind, and snow could not stop us.

And then my childhood just disappeared

It didn’t even say goodbye, just sneaked out of my life.

The saddest part it doesn’t even come to visit

I only see it in my dreams now.

It is gone… FOREVER.

I am not a robot, I am just a human

I breathe, I live, I exist, isn’t that not enough?

You want me to dig In deeper into my mind and my soul and give you proof that I am human?! Of course I’M HUMAN!The more I grow older the more I find myself; my emotions are the first proof of my humanity.
  That first love and that first break up was the first time that I opened my eyes and told myself that it is okay to cry, it is okay to spill my heart out. I realized I needed to stop hiding behind my fake smile and just open up. I feared people; their stares in classes would give me this uncomfortable feeling, feeling of loneliness, it still does.  I worried about what “they” thought and what they said behind my back.  I thought too much, I kept creating problems for myself that weren’t there in the first place. That was the reason I closed up and gave up on trusting people; I was on my own…
  Now that I think about it I almost felt like I was a robot, alone, forgotten. I was a different kind of robot, I had a beating heart and I had a brain. Those two things made me a human! That feeling of emptiness was always with me, I felt like there was no point for me on this earth. With time I realized I was created for a reason, I am supposed to make a difference.  
  I still fear of being alone, I fear of being forgotten and being unknown.  I laugh, I cry, I dream and hope and this is the absolute proof of me being human. 
  I made and will make mistakes, I am not perfect-I will let you down, just let me be. Let me live, let me survive. MY heart still beats, I am HUMAN, and I am one of a kind.

 

 

 

I am me

My name is “Audrey Hepburn”. 

I am me! I can love and I can hate.

 I love, I laugh, I cry, but I live.
 I am me and that’s all I will be.  

 Music is something I feel like I don't know what I would do without. Whenever I feel down, music can always easily lift me up and brighten my day.

Sometimes it will even let me forget about the issues I had. Music helps me see beauty all around.

I also love to travel. My dream is to someday just take a Jeep (my dream vehicle) and go all over the country with that someone special.

 Still there is something wondrous about going to a different country and forgetting about your own life for a while, and focus more on where you are now.  Like they say "lose yourself in the moment".