Friday, January 10, 2014

#real talk

This is to a boy who got into my head with all the pretty things he said.
To the same boy who got inside my heart leaving slashes and then forgot to stitch it back.
My heart feels heavy.
Almost like my stomach feels after every Thanksgiving meal.
Empty chalice falling on the tile floor, shattered sound reminds me of the time you said "I love you".
I am trying to pick up the pieces
Trying to heal my bruises.
I can't even remember the last time I prayed.
Because when I had you there was no space for God.
A tender sacrifice
I wake up to the alarm clock shouting,
Reminding me that you are no longer part of ny life.
We are just two people trying to fit into space meant for one.
Now our love is just smeared with the color of forgotten memories.
I realized you not wanting me could be the beginning of me wanting myself.
As I take a step in the opposite direction of you I find courage to smile.
But you... Are not the reason anymore.

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Goodbye Paris

The school brought me very little comfort

I felt like an outsider

But Paris… Paris was a place of get away.

I admit Paris felt like heaven

Or at least how I imagine it would be

I could be myself, even though I was hiding behind another fake person

I will miss you Paris, every little confidence I got I owe it all to you

I will remember you forever


Audrey Hepburn

Sunday, December 8, 2013

I'm obsessed with animals! Sorry...


I remember I couldn't wait for school to start. I remember being shy and scared of having no friends. I remember wanting to meet God. I remember the day I lost someone close to me. I remember cursing in my prayers. I remember pain. I remember wanting to always be alone, but it's not a memory anymore.

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

The start of my poetry.

[our love]

They say our love will never last forever.

They think there is no commitment

They swear our love will not reach a happy end.

I say the hell with those who think they know us!

We should not believe it, we will not be scared!

We will burn our fears and bury the ashes.

Remember we were happy once?

Remember when we kept out love in secret?

When it came to the word "love", we were the definition.

Our love was immediate and forever.


How to survive No shave November?

How to survive No shave November? Or what you might call it "Noshamber".

Don't lie girls you always wondered that.
Admit it its not that fun kissing a guy with his hairy face...

#1. Ask him to shave... which no way he will do.

#2. Pray... pray hard!

#3. At night when he is asleep sneak in and carefully shave it all off. (Lets be honest guys will sleep through anything.)